I drove around and cried my eyes out. Here I am 3 months pregnant with this man's child and he's wearing women's clothing. Is he gay? After a while I decided to go back to the house and tried talking to him. This time I returned and he was locked in the bedroom dressed as a woman watching p*rn...I yelled at him and hit him. Then I decided to calm down and talk to him. He told me he dressed like a cheerleader before and made people laugh and he was trying to make me laugh because we had gotten in a fight. I asked him how he was planning on doing that with the door nailed shut. He finally said he had found some ritalin and took it and he had blacked out and didn't know what he was doing. So we talked, got over it and went on.

Occasionally, I would notice my underwear missing and find different articles of clothing stuffed away in places like kitchen cabinets and behind the washer and dryer. I tried to ignore it because I really wanted my son to grow up with his mother and father. There have been a few occasions where I know for sure he is locked in the bathroom dressing like a girl. I looked on his cell phone and found pictures of him in skirts and l*ngerie. I decided I was going to leave him. He begged and begged me to stay and looking back I'm not sure what I was thinking. A few months went by and I didn't come across any missing clothing or anything hidden around the house. I figured everything was normal again.

About a week before I had my son I came home and found he had spent his whole pay check on women's clothing, wigs, p*rn, a p*nis pump and two d*ldos. I was livid. I told him we were over and he was never going to be around this child because he was a sicko. I didn't talk to him for a week then I gave birth to my son and he showed up at the hospital. I guess the moment of all the happiness we stayed together. For the couple months of our son being alive things went well. But I found a file hidden app on his phone and got into it and found pictures of him dressed up and videos of him dancing dressed up and playing with himself. I also found he went to tranny dating sites and his profile stated "I want to meet a she-male".  He didn't have a picture of himself on there or his name but there were emails sent to him from the site so I know it's him.

I tried talking to him, very calmly. I didn't accuse him or made fun of him. I just asked him if he wanted to be with men, or if he was bisexual. I asked him if it just turned him on. If so I could live with it, and we could find a way to make it work. He said no. I told him if that's who he is and what makes him happy then he shouldn't have to hide who he is. He just kept saying no and he doesn't know why he does it. He got angrier and angrier as I tried to talk to him, so I quit.

About a week or two since I first saw him dressed up, we have not made love. He seems so far away all the time. We don't kiss, he doesn't tell me he loves me. Basically our relationship is just like roommates. I try to understand what is going on in his head but I can't. If ANYONE knows a way to approach him to get him to open up and talk to me and let me know what he wants, please help! I am only 20 and can't live my life feeling unwanted. But it's hard to leave because I want my son to grow up in an unbroken family. He claims he doesn't know what he would do without us. I want to help him come out if he is gay or just let me know if it's a f*tish he's into, but he just gets angry and says idk when I try to talk to him. Part of me feels he is gay but then I think back to when we actually made love and I can't believe he could be gay because it was always so amazing. How do I get him to talk to me?  And if not do I just leave and move on with my life?  It's just hard for me to wrap my head around....Someone please give me some thoughts on this!