People tell me to not get my hopes up and my husband tells me to stay positive. I have the biggest fear that this will never happen for me and it breaks my heart. I have the biggest need to carry a child and I've always wanted to be a stay at home mommy. I feel like I would have a hole in my heart if I was never able to have a child.

I didn't have a very good home life growing up. My parents never really knew how to be good parents I don't think. So I've always wanted to give my children something better than what I had.

I also started taking prenatal vitamins, but it makes me sad when I take them, knowing it may be for nothing. There's always adoption. I know it's a long and hard process but maybe I should start looking into it anyway.

My husband got checked and everything is good with him. So it hurts even more knowing it's because of me that we can't have a child. I don't know why I have such a need to have a child. Maybe it's just something some women go through.

It makes me so mad to think about the females out there who get pregnant and don't even want to keep the precious life they made. I know sometimes there are certain circumstances and I get that. Maybe someone else has gone through this similar situation? All comments are welcome. Thanks :)