His father was an alcoholic and he beat him, his sister and his mother. He was in and out of their life and unfortunately Nathan followed in his footsteps. He started drinking and his mom begged him to go to AA and sit in on some meetings. I went with him a few times but he stopped going shortly after and that's when the trouble started. He hung out with his friends all the time and spent hardly any time with me. This caused some arguments and he even got physical. He treated me like sh*t and acted as if I was only good for one thing. I know I should've broke it off when things went downhill but I loved him and hoped he would change.

One day he came over my house when no one was home and we had a fight. That's when I saw his other side. He called me names and pushed me to the ground and left. He really scared me and the look in his eyes was that of a crazy person. At that point I knew things would only escalate so I called him the following  day and broke up with him…he didn't even care.

Within a few of weeks after our breakup, I found out that while we were dating he slept with another girl at a party. It hurt and when I called him he denied the whole thing and hung up on me. I was truly done at this point and was glad I got out of the relationship before he got any more violent.

About two months later, I was concerned that I was possibly pregnant and took a home pregnancy test at my friend's house. I knew what the results were even before I saw the positive test result. At that point I called Nathan and told him the news. He practically laughed at me and I hung up the phone and cried uncontrollably...thank god my friend was there with me. She and I talked it over and I decided to call him back and tell him that I took a second test and that result was negative and I wasn't pregnant. He was a jerk again of course and I knew I had a big decision to make. I was still living with my parents and knew they would disown me if I decided to keep the baby. 

I thought about my options and came to the conclusion that there was only one way to solve my problem. I made an appointment at a clinic to have an abortion. My friend was the only person who knew about any of this and she took me to my appointment. When it was all over I felt sad and wished things could have turned out differently.

Nathan called me after he broke up with his next girlfriend and tried to get back together with me. I spoke to him but there was not going to be any reconciliations. I heard from mutual friends that he was violent with his girlfriend whom he had a baby with. I realized that even though I had love for him I could not change him and I was better off without him. After that conversation he and I lost contact and I never did tell him that I aborted our baby. I knew I made the right decision for myself whether people view it as a right or a wrong thing to do…It was not an easy choice but it was my decision to make.