This continued for a while and he wouldn't take no for an answer. I felt I was being stalked and voiced my concerns to my manager at work who offered to take me home so I could avoid the creepy guy. He must have followed us and found out where I lived because he started parking right in front of my apartment building late at night and just sat there. I approached him and asked him to stop stalking me and to leave me alone. He told me he would if I'd agree to go on a date with him. I let him know I was not interested and if he continued what he was doing I would have to get the police involved. This seemed to have worked because he stopped showing up. I thought the threat of contacting the authorities scared him off. Weeks went by and he was nowhere in sight and I felt I could rest easy.

One night I woke up suddenly because I heard someone in my house. I turned the light on in my bedroom and realized the guy who was stalking me was now in my room. I started to scream but he quickly covered my mouth and told me to shut up or he would have to hurt me. He taped my mouth shut and forced himself on top of me. I tried to fight him off but couldn't because he was a lot bigger and stronger than me. He raped me that night and repeatedly told me that it was all my fault. I cried the whole time, praying that he would stop and leave so the nightmare could be over. When he was finished, he told me I deserved everything I got for being a tease and not giving him a chance. He threatened that if I went to the cops, he would kill me. When he left, I waited a few minutes to make sure he was really gone and called the police. I was told not to shower or bathe so a DNA sample can be collected and used as evidence to convict my rapist. After all was said and done, he  was arrested and is now doing time. 

I worry that he's going to come after me when he gets out. I live in fear each and everyday now. I'm terrified of all men and I don't know if I'll ever be able to trust anyone again. But at this point I have other important matters which I need to handle. A few months after the rape, I found out I was pregnant. I panicked knowing this baby is a product of the vicious attack I am trying to forget but can't. I am nearly seven months along and I still don't know whether I'll keep him. I'm not sure I can raise and love a baby that will be a constant reminder of what I had to endure. Some of my family and friends think I should give the baby up for adoption, but there's a part of me that wants to keep him. I struggle trying to decide what to do...I really need to make the right decision because either way it will affect me and this innocent child for the rest of our lives. My parents said they will support any choice I make, and that includes moving back home because I cannot raise the baby all on my own. I am so conflicted...I don't know what to do. Any advice would help and be greatly appreciated. Thanks in advance.