He began professing his love for me and swore he would never cheat again. We were separated for about four months in which he did everything in his power to win me back. Eventually he talked me into giving him another chance. I stopped the divorce proceedings and allowed him move back into the house. I explained to him that since he broke my trust I will never feel totally secure in our marriage because I'm no longer confident that he is trust worthy. It was difficult at first, but I love Roy and I wanted our marriage to work. I didn't want our children to be products of divorce and all that it entails so we made a fresh new start and we ended up moving.  He and I started communicating more and we began to rebuild what we once had. 

I made a mistake of discussing my marriage problems with my new neighbor. Melissa and I became close after we moved into the neighborhood. Within weeks our children were having play dates and on occasion she and I went for girls night out. She thought I should have not taken Roy back after he cheated because he would probably do it again. This made me upset and I politely asked her to keep her opinions to herself. 

One day she said I should consider bringing another woman into my marriage. She was talking about herself. I didn't take her seriously and thought it was the alcohol talking. She brought it up again another time telling me it could possibly improve my relationship with my husband and I wouldn't have to worry what he was doing. I got upset with her and she promised to never mention it again. 

Months later I carelessly told her about a fight I had with Roy. I told her I had difficulty trusting him and that's when she brought up the idea of bringing another woman in. She said all men cheat because it's in their genes. She tried convincing me it would be better to allow him to be with someone else on my terms then to constantly worry about him cheating.

I thought things over and the crazy idea she came up with ended up making sense. I told Roy and he was surprised that I'd be willing to do go through with something like that. Once he made sure I wasn't playing a joke on him, he agreed to it. That night I hired a babysitter and Roy and I headed over to Melissa's home. I was so nervous I almost backed out of it. I drank some alcohol to relax and the evening went on as planned. When it was over with I knew I made a huge mistake. It was a stupid idea and I regret it.

I still can't get the image of Roy and Melissa out of my mind. I haven't had any contact with her since that night and I have no intention of it. It's obvious now that she wanted my husband all along and like an idiot, I delivered him on a silver platter. Now I'm concerned about them having sex behind my back. I don't know what this means for my marriage but it doesn't look good. I am so confused.